Seems like I have no other choice but to play with you? Or Do I?
Are you the Leader of that old saying, what goes around comes around?
Does it mean I am forced to reap what I sow? Scarcity or Abundance ?
Are you something like a cause and effect thing; that which I caused gives you rights to turn this cause back around?
Do you feel my feelings Karma? Do you have feelings of your own or are you just Plain and Simply Neutral? Are you like a Wall that everything bounces off of maybe? If so, how do you know where to go?
Do you see everything I do?
Or am I an illumination and what I illuminate affects you, thus me, thus them, thus there? And then you come back to affect me with you being the law of the land?
Are you a law?
Do you have rules you are following from someplace?
Do you bring back to me 10 fold of things or take back 10 fold of things?
Are you instant?
Karma, are you the personality of the fate sisters, weaving and holding together the Universal Force for me in order for my actions to spin around for an experience, thus creating my own fate? So are you a team effort?
Do you ever go away? Can I ever resolve you Karma?
Are you forgiving?
Are you a one to one ratio thing?
Goodness help me! I may owe!
Do my thoughts count?
Do my words count?
Do my actions count?
So my deeds count?
I might owe more than I think I owe depending on what counts?
Is Karma the way my Life works itself out automatically?
Let me pay attention to my karma land!
Karma, I don’t think you are giving me a straight answer? I am faced with too many variables in my life from you!
Karma, I see bad people accumulating so much right stuff; why?
Karma, it seems that your paybacks are not what I give out? How can you be any love when there is hurt as a give back?
Karma , are you a double edge sword, love and peace and goodness on one side, and hurt and pains and badness, even death, on another side? Oh Geez, so are you like judgment for me?
My eyes see my world as good or bad; sometimes okay. This seems like a dualistic world. Let me ask you Karma, how can I get to stay in the good? How do I knowingly get to the bad? (just so I know not to get there with you).
How can I get a rest and not partake in either this or that or even nothing?
Karma, can you just keep giving me the good stuff?
OR are you the goddess Maat or something fact similar? Are you weighing my heart actions here as a human with an ego? Karma, does that mean you will be my returned actions until I am as light as your ostrich feather and reach my heaven? And if I haven’t lived up to my heart desires where do you send me?
Now I ask you, why do some things work out for me, and then others don’t look so good for me?
I’ve wondered this time and time again. When things are going good, why would some thing different come along and make a new thing awful?
Or why would the same thing return once again, throwing me for a loop?
It’s the unexpected from you that I don’t like! Yes, how can I make plans with you if you keep coming back with those unexpected setbacks for me?
Can you understand that sometimes I get tired of playing with you?
Another thing, if I pray for my situation to get better, how in the world can it get worse? And it has, believe me! It’s like my prayer didn’t seem to matter to you Karma? Can you check with God on that one?
At times I do wonder if I came to hell . Sometimes I can feel the heaven. Those are the times I must stop and contemplate and take in the happy feelings as heaven time in order for me to realize I am happy here too. Seems to me that during those times of bliss, I just roll with the lightness of these situations and don’t stop too much until that unscheduled dreadful surprise comes to me and its hell all over again! Can you help me with that Karma?
Oh, is that what Gratitude is for? Does Gratitude count with you and help me out? Do I say, “Thanks God for this Good Stuff and can you Thank Karma too” in order for me to get on Karma’s good side?
But you know, I love, just love, the times when its all Good! There is my Love. If I can only keep that love going, will it always be good stuff from you? Can you let me know how I keep the good stuff coming my way?
By the way – any discomfort, including hard times which come my way, I call Hell because it isn’t Heaven!
Could you be what “I” call playing with the Devil? Could you be an experience I am calling upon?
Can you understand that sometimes I get tired of playing with you?
Of course, if there is a neutral corner someplace here in this land of yours Karma, I would like to know about it so I can go stand in that corner once-in-a- while where nothing new will come to me. In your corner of neutrality, I would like to stand until i get bored enough and make my own decision to get out of the corner and decide to enter your Karma playing field. And, when I’m good and ready again! If you have a Trick in order to make this happen, can you let me know? Could this be called a Purgatory stand in Karma land?
So now I’m wondering Karma, are you one of Gods Angels? Do you have a color? Do you smell like anything? Do you have a taste? Do you have a voice? Do you look like anything?
Do you like your Job? Are you a flow? It would be nice to know when you are around and working so I can watch out for you.
Can you give me some Grace?
Please do not tell me you’re all the same for everyone. Please do not say to me that everyone goes through the same stuff, it’s not personal or it’s only a learning experience. It does seems all personal to me and I see loads and loads of people all happy when I’m not all happy and I feel I keep learning all my life! I look around and stuff happens to me that I do not deserve. Stuff that I can’t imagine comes into my space. It’s like you’re picking on me with one thing after another. When you bring about hard to grasped stuff, (like an illness, or debts beyond debts, or floods or hurricanes’ or job losses , or take-always, or fights after fights, or not giving me my monies due, being picked on, being ridiculed, or death too) I just don’t feel I deserve to go through all that. How does that seem to you? How do you feel I deserve that stuff? How are you able to justify all this bad stuff toward me?
Then Stuff/Things feels to be happening to me even when it’s not about me! How can other people’s business affect me and even my health?
I feel my emotions bubbling up when dealing with not only my own concerns, but also when the closeness has to do with my family, my friend’s, enemy’s; sometimes even when the world just shows it to me! I can feel the pain and now wonder if this pain is coming from you karma, because it’s coming from somewhere for some reason?
Don’t you love me too? Oh, do you know what love is?
Where exactly do you hold the Love if you have your own set of rules called you, Karma? And why does Love not seem to help me in all things? After all, its Love isn’t it? Shouldn’t Love flow into me and keep me there?
Okay Karma, I know God (the Everything, the Force, the Universe, the Big ETC.) had to create you too, I just don’t get you.
Hey Karma, are you the prophet of “you will never be given more than you can handle”? I would like to know how you ‘get’ exactly how much I can handle?
Are you here Karma to wake me up to what is good and bad? Believe me, I know good when I’m happy about it, and I know bad with all its feeling’s, so why do you have to wake me up?
Well, since I can’t hear you or see you, or smell you, or taste you, or feel you Karma, I am going to have to figure you out myself. I’d like to get to know you.
Maybe with the help of others, we can come up with perceptions that will save us from our troubles with you? After all, you cover a lot of territory, I need all the help I can get!
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“Minds will matter.”